If only carrot can run…

“How do I know if they’re good and suitable?”My manager’s tips : As long as they can make you happy and manage to cheat you (that means they can cheat everyone else)!

So, today, armed with those advices and KW’s Qs, with cold sweaty palms, I dragged one of my colleagues to accompany me, I marched into the interview room.

It wasn’t as scary and I felt like I was in control but not enough preparations. I printed out their resumes at last minutes, didn’t go through them first and lacked of good questions to ask.

And I lacked of the ability to listen as they dawdled off non-stop. And the aircond was blowing too cold and makes my eyes oh-so-sleepy. But it was alright. It lasted for about 20 minutes only.

And it beginning to feel fun~ Two down, another one to go this afternoon and three more on next Tues~

Way to go~

Landlady discovered that I couldn’t read Chinese and it’s the 7-year-old-girl that teaches me Chinese instead of the other way round. So, when she went to my room on Sunday morning, instead of bringing the Chinese Book, she brings Malay book instead!

I opened her book and there’s a list of Ejaan Quiz words. I decided to teach her and make her get 100% this time. Teaching her requires a lot of patient, seriously. Only 10 words.

She could spell without problem but she didnt know the meaning of those words and kept forgeting although I told her a lot of times. Finally I sent her down. At night she came into my room again. So again, I asked her and she got it right for one round, she said the landlady taught her.

I asked her the meaning for 2nd times and she forgot all! So I asked her to say aloud ‘Tomorrow (in Chinese) is Esok’ for 10 times. Then ‘Semalam is yesterday (in Chinese)’ for ten times. After that I asked her what is esok and she forgot!

If I really have short-term-memory-lost, I bet she has instant-memory-lost! After going through the 4 words for nearly 40 minutes, she finally got it correct. And it really made me so exhausted.

Then I looked into her eyes and said “You must get 100% ok!” She nodded slowly. “You promised me? I’ll give u a toy if you get 100%”, I said. She nodded and added “But this test is already over!” I was speechless….

The higher your position, the bigger your responsibility. The larger your salary, the bigger worries and tasks you have to shoulder. And I think I m not a strong enough person. My shoulder is too small, I can’t carry too much loads. That’s how I felt.

When I started out as a fresh graduate, my job was easy and straight forward. I dont have to worry much and I can sleep peacefully. But now, ppl expectation with me has grown exponantially. I like the rewards given, although it will be better if I have more benefits. But I felt that I might not be able to cope in the responsibility-wise.

My EQ is not high enough, I get easily disturbed when things goes wrong. Depending on the scale of the problem, I might rise back easily if it is a small issue. Else I just force myself not to think about it, pretending it doesn’t exist till when I am forced to deal with it. It’s not a good way to deal it but I’ve yet to find a way to handle it efficiently.

I hope, one day, I’ll be a calm person when it comes to dealing problems, small or big. Like the sea, calm & peaceful.

“Do you have friends if you are thin?”

That’s what the 7-year-old girl asked me y’day.

I tried to cuddle her and sit her on my lap and she’s quite heavy, so I asked her ‘Why are you so heavy?’.

She replied me “Do you have friends if you are thin?”

Pat said that I am outdated. I need to update myself. I can’t be always listening to old songs. I need to listen to new songs as well.Pat asked JT to send me a new song but JT refused, insisting that I only listen to old songs. Pat said I am outdated coz I don’t know that in Friendster that you can add friend’s friend.

Oh, I am so
outdated!

And I am going to change. I am going to listen to new songs. I can’t change for Pat, I must change because I want to change and I need to change. I was happy when I tried to send Pat a song ‘16th’s lovers’ by Joey.

I thought it’s a very new song. Turned out that Pat already have that song and it’s already more than a month old song. I must listen to new songs.

So, send me some new songs!

My boss came down to KL last Wed & gave me my salary in SGD cash. I put all of it in my bag, went to dinner with Adam & Pat that evening. I went home, took it out, put the envelope at the bottom of my wardrobe & put my payslip at the Pooh-pockets on my wall.

Yesterday, after having dinner with LH; feeling a bit low, I decided to pack for Wed trip to Singapore instead, hoping it will make me feel better. I searched & searched & searched for the envelope that contained my SGD1K.

It must have been buried within the pile of messy clothes. I have been delaying to tidy it up. I took out all my clothes & put it on my bed & ‘redistributing’ it to bags. It took me more than 2 hours to search for my money.

Still I couldn’t find it. I was quite convinced that someone must have ‘taken’ it. I cursed myself for again, being so careless. Losing things have been part & parcel of my life. After all I’ve lost my purse for 4 times, my bag for one time, handphone one time & plenty of money as well. But this time, the cost is too high.

I searched inside my color box, under my bed, at my piles of files and every where in my room! Still couldn’t find it.I got quite panic & began to sms Barb & later called her. I was already sweating & felt so warm.

I went to shower & Barb told me to wash my hair as well, which I did at nearly 11pm at night. In the bathroom, I began to run the whole week events in my mind. Was it becoz I left my door unlocked when I went jogging? Wait a min, I went jogging on Tues, so I haven’t even gotten the money yet.

Was it the renovation workers next door, and I could see them out of the window the other day? Has I dropped the money on the floor & someone saw it? After I got out of the bathroom, I thought I would check my clothes again for the third time. But then between my socks, I saw an envelope there! It’s my money!

Oh My God! I swore that I’ve gone through it a few times, yet I didn’t see it! And how the helll did it got at the top of wardrobe instead at the bottom of the wardrobe! Before I doze off, my last thought is if there’s really an angel out there who put it there for me. Or god just wants me to tidy up my wardrobe & wash my hair.

Have you ever be quite close with someone and then gradually lost contact?

When the gap becomes bigger and both of you are drifted apart in your own busy life, you still feel comfortable with the distance and hence do not have any intention to close the gap?

And I really felt ’suffocated’ in the situation. Give me a break! 

To the other person, it’s like ‘either we keep in touch like last time or we’re no more friends’.